woman

you're a woman, a mother and you're married
from the very beginning you should have known
your responsibility

you're a woman and you think you're a decent one
you have kids, you have a husband
never appear in your little head that you're a lucky a woman
not every woman's given right to bear children and has a faithful husband
but you destroy their pure dream,their lovely world
you're a woman and I don't think you deserve what you've got

I hate you woman, you who vowed at your wedding day that
you'd be a source of happiness for your family
then at the middle of journey you fled away just because a little stony path,
left behind the clear eyes, small heads needed affectionate touches, their mother's hand
I hate you woman, I hate every woman who left their children for the sake of themselves

you never know you bring hurricane to your kids, every day, every night
have you ever imagined...I don't think you are
to whom they should address 'why the sea's blue, why the moon just appear at night, where the sun goes, who creates the rainbow....'
I loathe the very part of you,
I despise you,

After like ten years,I found this draft. Quite a heart pour!

bahagia tiba2,senyum dikulum, earphone dari pagi nempel di telinga
yeah seems nothing matter now.what probably the cause..so carefree, no life burden at all
one thing..i can't forget one thing..Allah blesses me this so I may not go overboard. too early to conclude everything coz tomorrow it will change again
just remember as today you experienced gladness and you're excited about it, don't overflow yourself with pity when the times goes wrong way...life has its own path, for me it fluctuates wildly, no...it's as calm as pacific but should i afraid of it, or does sunshine means new hopes. as always, i am bewildered about everything but it's ok
na...na..na..na...flowers, birds, snows, but i am uncomfortable with sunset.why?
it's the sign of the ending of life maybe....loneliness somewhere...sometimes. don't know how to describe it, the horizon seems so far, the colours're just fantastics yet terrifying...should not feel dislike that eh, yeah it's one of god's creatures...should be thankful being able to glance at it emotionally.

life's just the way you think it is...yeah..couldn't be more agree. but humans like me sometimes a blur spot spilled on ocean............lost without any guiding star. but yeah Allah is my guide...
i can't just write whatever comes to mind, since everybody is responsible for their own wrong doings. I know my faith will save me even there are thousands life volcanoes explode at the same time.
should tell something useful, uh. but you avoid being called pious. what's wrong with it? doesn't our prophet advised us to speak kindly to our brothers and sisters? ah...everyone knows it, just hard when it comes to practise...

na..na...na...........(when the sadness comes from nowhere, don't let yourself be stepped on for too long,,,get it? still in nijmegen